anong nangyayari? :(

whew! i don't know if it's right. i just know i didn't meant to do this or perhaps feel this.

this story is just an ordinary story of someone who fell in love of his friend only that, I'm content with our relationship. i don't like to come to the situation where we both will ruin our relationship. being friends, for me, is enough. i don't want to push through. with this, you can call me coward.

let's say that I'm the kind of person who will choose friendship rather that heart partnership..

i love that woman so much that i still can keep this secret by myself, without telling anyone (or perhaps i told someone who has no relation w/ the girl). this secret is the one which makes my breathing much heavier. every time i see her, i cant talk. i just don't know what to say. when she's not around, i keep on missing her but when she's there, i have nothing to do.

i don't want to hope. what i know is that, too much hoping means to much pain when time comes that i will know that what I'm hoping for, was just like hoping for none.

i am happy having her around..

i chose not to do anything. i don't want to mess up our friendship. as I've said, I'm already contented of having her around. now the problem is that this girl is not a stone. i know she can feel me. now our relation is not as warm as it was before. every time we meet, we just overlook each other.

you know what i feel?

"ang sakit sakit.."

wala na nga akong ginawa pero dun pa rin yung naging tuloy. yung masira lang ang friendship.

anong nangyari? :(